Not long ago, I really blew up at the kids.
Once the kids were in bed, I sat, broken before the Lord, Bible in my lap, asking Him for forgiveness.
He led me straight to this verse.
It was a gentle rebuke. I deserved much harsher. “Whatever happens,” Becky. No matter how disobedient your children, how loud their volume, how long they ignore your instruction, or how angry you become, “Whatever happens, conduct yourself in a manner worthy of the Gospel.”
The next morning, I pulled Grant to me and read him this verse. “Grant, I’m sorry I got so angry. Mommy was not conducting herself worthy of the Gospel. I asked God to forgive me. Will you?”
Of course he did…that sweet little man.
This was a big night for me as a mother. Coming from a long line of “yellers”, it was a stake in the ground. A turning point for me and, prayerfully, generations to follow.
I wear this ring to remind me of this moment. Of this verse.
This is all hard to confess. But I have a feeling I am not alone.
In everything, I want to live a life worthy of the Gospel of Jesus. In everything.