I was queen of the sin cycle.
We are talking years of bondage to the same habitual sin – over and over. And yes, I was even a Christian. But the enemy had such a foot hold in my life, and I loved my sin so dearly, that I convinced myself that I was too deeply invested to be broken free.
And I was miserable.
I knew that if I could just be loosed of this one area in my life, that the flood gates of blessing would open. I knew that, but I still struggled handing it completely over.
Isn’t it amazing how dearly we hold sin?
It is so repulsive, yet we tend to have an affection for it.
I am talking abstractly, I know. But the sin that held me captive is irrelevant. Sin is sin is sin.
1 John 3:4 says that Everyone who sins breaks the law; in fact, sin is lawlessness.
I was lawless. Self legislated, self righteous and lawless – in this area especially.
I had a dream last night. Stay with me. It was a very disturbing dream. And it all started from an odor in my garbage can. Yesterday, seriously, I thought – is there something dead in there? It just smelled like a decaying, dead something. So in my dream, there were large snakes of varying size and big rats swarming around the trash in our driveway. The smell was repulsive and attracting varmints – and we couldn’t get into our house for fear of these nasty creatures.
So it is with sin. Sin can not be hidden long. After a while, the smell of decay and ruin will present itself and its presence attracts the wrong crowd.
But you know that [Christ] appeared so that he might take away our sins. 1 John 3:5
Back to my sin cycle. Did I have varmints swarming me? Oh yes. But the crowd that followed after my sin were not people. They were critters of fear, anxiety and despair. I could not live a full life in Christ because in this one area I continued to live according to my sinful nature.
I had one foot in and one foot out.
And it wasn’t working for me.
Romans 8:13 says, “For if you live according to the sinful nature you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body you will live.
I wanted to live.
So Christ moved towards all my trash, stink and ruin and took out my garbage. Where everyone else would shy away – He moved closer. By the power of His Spirit he put to death the misdeeds of my body and gave me life. It was something so beyond me that the only way to explain it is to claim the supernatural.
He is supernatural. And ready to perform a miracle.
He is sitting on GO.
Just waiting….to finally put to death the decaying, smelly misdeeds of cyclical sin – and give us life.